Brutally Honest #05

Rant mode is strong right now because I’m currently boiling over the issue I will be stating in this post.

Bismillah.

We all are struggling with life, school, work and personal stuff. Yes, so many things to do within a short span of time.

When you add more things into your commitment list, PLEASE ENSURE you know how to manage your time wisely and efficiently. Know what to PRIORITISE, and if you’re behind in something, step up and put in extra effort to fulfil it. There’s Google if you don’t know how to do things. There’s friends you can ask help from. So many ways.

I don’t understand why you chose to put more focus on work than school. And then, you cannot juggle school commitments as religiously as your work shifts. Only doing school work when the due date is just in a few days, or even the next day. Your work is not done with much relevance to the topic, because you’re more into getting it done than getting it right. You have so many days to complete it, so many nights to burn. But yet….

I know you’re tired. But please, own up to it. Now there’s another thing, about not owning up to your work. TAKE FULL OWNERSHIP AND RESPONSIBILITY of your own work. Please, we all hate school assignments. But what’s the point of paying ton shits of money on school when you just can’t put in that much amount of effort to your work? It’s like, you’re wasting money, time and effort. I want grades as good as that thousands of money I’ve investedĀ for school.

I’m just so done at this point, I’d rather take over your work and get it RIGHT, than just letting it go.

Done ranting and I’m off to do more editing because I just cannot just ignore.

TC & Wassalam

Vlogs, Coherency and Indie

It’s the third day of blogging, technically second because I forgot to blog yesterday. I don’t know if I want it to be a daily blogging thing or only blog when I feel the need to update. I’ll think through it for now.

Anyway, good morning. It’s only 7:53am now as I am typing these. This post isn’t about what happened yesterday or what will happen today, unlike the first post, but a rambling kind. Sometimes I felt the need to express my opinions on things which matters to me but might not to you.

Last night, a friend whatsapped me a link of her first vlog. I’m so proud of her for taking a leap into doing something she has been dreaming of. Actually, I attempted vlogging a few minutes ago and it turned out fine, just that I wasn’t presentable enough and I don’t have a list of things to talk about. Spontaneously talked throughout the video which isn’t a good thing for me. There weren’t any flow to it. It sucks, lol.

Vlogging has been one of my to-do things but what hindered me from starting one is that first of all, I’m camera shy. I think that’s the same for every beginners so that’s not really an excuse. Contradicting my own points, huh. Well, I don’t have confidence with how I look like too. I have bad skin and I rarely use makeup. There’s definitely some who would just talk about how you look like, and I’m very self-conscious and sensitive about what others have to say about me. I’m still in the process of building self-confidence and self-esteem now, so until I’ve solved them or when I’m more confident about how I look like, no vlogs!

Also, I have this trouble of thinking and talking at the same time? I find it really hard to focus on what I want to say next when I am talking about what I have to say at that moment. The coherency gets cut off at some point and I’d stop to think of how to continue on or where did I stop so I can move on. I don’t know if this is a kind of disease. It should be. I’ve known none who faced such problems, and that creeps me out. Maybe I should seek some psychologist or counsellor or some of such knowledge and find solutions to this problem, but I regarded it as a personal issue, so none knows about this, except well you would know after you have read this.

Managed to cramp in another topic, lol. I have much more things to talk about for each topic for this post, but because I’m aware that there’s not just one topic but two more, I decided to jump in to the next one impatiently.

Anyway, indieeeeeee! Loving indie, or independent music so much these days! The tunes are amazing, they just make you seep in through their music and your emotions are off the hook and changing according to how the music will go by. It’ll bring you to another world, the world the song envisioned. Or rather to a different story of someone’s life. Maybe that happens to all kinds of music too, but indie music has this similar kind of pull towards your emotions and I love that. I think they need more support from fans as they’re building up their own music and planning their next moves themselves. In order to make that happen, you people to support you, and that’s where the fundings come from. I know indie artists are never about money but sharing their music to others, but to get their music to reach to others, they need money and crowd. When someone’s into something, he would want to share with others about that happiness he felt from it, and see how their reactions are. It’s a natural thing. The more people share about it, the more something would spread. That’s basically how music gets known.

I must get going. 3o minutes till I leave for school. I think I shall do such topics in the morning like now, and other daily blogs at night.

To a more organised and accepting society,

XO