Prapp prapp prapp prapppp! “-and a Happy New Year!~”
Ah, new day new year new sets of resolution, maybe new look new vibe new things, but definitely just another chapter of life. Yet to be discovered. I am always the kind that does not hype up any sorts of celebration, so my game for new year was a quiet one. I wasn’t even counting down. The last moment I remembered was that, I was gazing into the eyes of a stray black cat, that was lingering outside my house. It was scary. Then the next thing I know, I glanced at my phone, and tapped to see that it was 8 minutes past midnight. My fireworks were the intense eye-to-eye moment with a feline creature.
A year gone. Ironically, speedy. How can 365 days disappear within the hour? How can you compare that to the blink of an eye? It is when those days become memories, that starts to fade. No longer present, nor the anticipations.
To recap, last year was a slow, chill kind of year. Not much of hammering myself into new experiences. I started to appreciate more of what I have. The year I realised my potentials and finally mapped out my career path. Half the year was spent upgrading myself as a designer. I wasn’t among the list of top students, but I took heaps of personal risks to step up my game. Taking up responsibilities as a leader, handling mediums I was very foreign with, and I mustered up the courage to be more socially responsible.
Who would have thought during that course of study, I:
- Designed my graduation show booklet
- Managed and led a team of 10 people for the graduation show, for 6 months
- Made decisions and contributed my voice as a leader and main decision makers of the graduation show
- Dealt with book/poster/booklet designs (mediums I have not tried before)
- Worked with an NGO singlehandedly for an FYP project. Conducted meeting, interviewed people for insights, went to one of their events to document emotions and first-person experiences, to deriving a solution heavily backed with research
- Attended IAS Career Fair and participated in a ‘speed interview’ of 4 minutes each with pronounced directors of big advertising companies.
- Went to Melbourne and ate good food, thrift shopped, cafe hopped, and ventured around alone
And when I wore the mortarboard, at least I felt accomplished as I delved into projects and decisions that I never would have attempted before.
My intention to keep a low status on social medias has led me to not post anything on Facebook and Instagram. Yes, for a whole year. My anxiety dropped a little. I don’t feel the pressure to always make good impressions. And all the special moments, were all privately documented. I have seen through countless of self-doubts, days of depression and the rejections of what I was capable of. Enough to the point where I have set 2018 to be the chapter where I see rejections as learning curves, and declutter all the negative influences immediately. I want to make quick actions for the better.
I had enough of tolerating with big things last year, for the small vibe in exchange. This year, I will be back as the daring me, but now full of warmth in the inside. You don’t change, you grow. I am going to spike things up my wardrobe, start new self projects, dive into my career path, spend more time with family and feel more connected with myself.
2018: Career, Individualism, Family
And as quoted off pyperblue or catscreature’s IG story, “You make the best out of everything, and not expect the best out of everything.”
Embrace or accept that imperfection.